Complicated Feel For Today

The girl i like, sent me a message today. Well, we always keep in touch before this. The reason i said suddenly she sent me a message, it's because she told me she already broke off with her boy friend.

At the first few sentence i thought it was some joke or fwd message. After I read finish the whole message, only know that it's about her. I always thought that they are happy together, and i never ask her things about them, because i don't wanna ask such question, and get answers that she's happy with her, though i want her to be happy.

Know her for quite long...8 years? I can't remember. She's from other country, so we used chat through internet and phone. There's few times we talk till the whole day, no idea what have we talk. Been many times plan to visit her, but always end up can't make it. Maybe that's the reason i lost the chance.

I still remember that day she told me, told me she had a boy friend. I am totally quiet, and only listen to what she said. Now think about it, long term relationship is not a easy thing to maintain.

From that day onward, i try to call her less, till rarely talk to her. I want her to forget me, or better to say i want to forget her. I try hard but i can't, so recently we keep in touch again just like old time.

hmm, is it a second chance this time i wonder.

Always stuck in new things......:(

Have you all change your blog into beta yet? i kinda regret now to change into beta without reading any rules and regulation or whatever bla bla bla....all i know now was, i can't post a comment on any of the blog, especially those already does not allow anonymous comments....duh....

why everytime i post a comment they will say the account use does not exist? duh, i use it to sign in....can anyone help the old cousin to solve the problem?

Few days ago get to know Wei and Min go back to Taiwan for holiday (Texas, Taiwan, next will be Malaysia??). Saw their pictures from their Taiwan cousin's blog. Suddenly i felt that everyone that i haven't seen so long has change a lot, Wei, Min, their parent, Kai, Leah, Uncle Bill, Kiat, Bin (these 2 fellow nothing much to change as i usually see then often...) Wei and Min's dad grow old a lot, their mom....hhmm, still as sweety as usual, :D. And i realise all my cousins, are no more the vision that in my mind anymore.

Kai has grown up, no more bunch of toys to share like last time, wondering still act weird sometimes or not like last time, still like A & W fried chicken till wants to remind everyone to order it after swimming(cause the pool was just beside the restaurant, remember?)

Leah grown up as well. All i remember that she always wear her extra size yellow color singlet(is that what they call?), and she cry a lot cause Kai likes to show her his power fist. And everytime she will 'mummy, mummy' before start asking anything. I still keep some pictures of her with her sexy wear.

Wei and Min (Silvia and Jennifer) grown up too. They used to be very tiny little baby to me. Nothing much memory about them just know that they are cute, chubby and like them very much that's all. Well, only see them not more than 3 times, can't expect more.

Wonder what changes they have in the future. Really wanna meet them up one day....

Pretty Baby Boy

Well, Bryan was sleeping for the first day visit so i decided to go for second visit and hope that he's awake so that i can take some picture of his. The pictures that his mother, that's my sister, sent to me were all sleepy Bryan. Thought the one only picture that took with my aunt was eye open, still not near enough to see.

I guess he fully wake today, maybe he knows his uncle coming to visit him. Or my sister keep wake him up before we arrive....haha

Anyway, i tried to carry him by just sitting down on the sofa, i'm still worry that i might accidently hurt him. We keep staring at each other. I think he's wondering who is this handsome fellow in front of me...muhahahahaha.

I took some of his picture of cousre but manage to upload only 1, cause i have no time to do it for the rest....soon will update here.

Last 2 week ago

Last two weekend was a boring one except go for some movies (darn i'm getting old) and went back home to visit my little nephew bryan.

Suppose the journey to home will be full in the car but end up empty and i'm driving alone back. Well, at least half of the way i was alone cause i fetching Lina and her friend to airport, they went for Thailand trip(damn it i want to go too). So the car was actualy full but only to the airport. Sorry Mel that the car can't fit you anymore due to your size...kekeke.

After drop them off and have Burger King for lunch, the journey continue. And now the second half of the journey was too quite, no nice song on the radio. I was dead bored and felt sleepy too (drive back after non stop working for a day, without sleeping). So unlucky things happens and happens again, it rains heavily suddenly. I hate and afraid of rain while driving. It will used up double of my energy to be alert everytime i drive during raining day, especially heavy one. I have to slow the speed down, and concerntrate the unclear situation in front. I was driving, and wathcing, and driving, and watching.....which i don't even know when my eyes close up....gosh, the next thing i open my eye, i realise i'm just few inches away from the car in front. Lucky thing was i was driving realy really slow and i manage to step on my break so not to kiss the butt of the car in front.

Then i was extra alert, forgot all the tireness cause i don't want to get into trouble. The rain getting clearer when i was almost reaching home. What i did after that was sleep for few hours before dinner, or maybe supper time comes.

Me, my mom, my brother and my mom's sister visited my nephew on that night. My sister staying in some rural estate farming area which the road was really really narrow and it was drak there, i never know the way to my sister's place can be like that. But at the end we do find our way there.

My sister was so excited when she saw us come. Actually she almost bored to dead cause she's not allowed to go anyway during the after birth period. Little Bryan was sleeping. Awww, this is the first time i saw my nephew after he born two weeks ago. But i don't dare to carry him cause i scare i might hurt him.....haha

I didn't take any pictures of his since he's sleeping. My sister keep on wants to wake him up but hey, leave him alone. Just leave the picture taking section to next day.

Since he's sleeping and it's getting late, so we didn't stay long and decided to come the next day. Hope he's awake with his little eye so i can take some picture then.......

I bring you bryan....:D

hhmm....what am i dreaming....


i'm having a nice dream....do not disturb


eldest aunt with Bryan before she go back to Texas


change another post....how's this?

Well, suppose plan to go back last weekend so that i can visit my nephew and take some pictures of him, with me of course to post here.....at the end i just can't leave my works behind so i have to cancel the plan....

Anyway, my sister do send me some of his pictures, so for those uncles and aunties that might not going to see him in short while, or maybe long term, i hate to say forever.....here's some pictures for Our sleepy Bryna...

Gathering pics

I know i promise that i will post some pictures of Bryan here but schedule a bit change....busy on the work....so i decided to post the pictures that the family gathering we had few weeks back....so far i only have four in hand, wondering where's the others since they keep on taking pictures like pro photographers during that time....

So i guess some of you has not seen ppl in the picture for long time ya....who you still can reconize?

Oh ya, i guess this time i go home i will go search for those old time pictures too....and post it here...i think i have bunch of them at home....

It's a baby boy!

This morning my sister had her cesarean (thanks to Kiat for the word) around 8.50 a.m. My mom called me and told me about it. It's a baby boy and looks exactly like my sister when she's young. His face was round, or maybe fat and he has a loud crying sound which is very sonorous. Too bad my phone can't receive picture or else i can get to see him now. Can't wait to go back home this weekend and take picture with my new born nephew....Bryan

Still Figuring!!

My sister is giving birth soon on this coming Thursday (Malaysia time). She will go for operation (i forgot how to spell that word, c fession??) instead of natural born. Heard it's time for the little to come out, he's not allowed to stay in there any longer. So my sister now is in the hospital and waiting for the day. Everything is set except the chinese (i dont care for that anymore) and the present. Well, guess i will get something useful, long lasting that her next children, or more, can use it. Maybe by the time i married and have a kid, my children can use it too. I already got something on my mind, but it's still too early to buy for him, or her. So i guess i just save up this month pay for myself and keep the next month for him, or her...:D

Little One

Hi, I'm little Bryan (that's what i hear my mom gonna call me). I'm almost 9 months old and for a normal baby, i gonna come out to this world soon....

Heard so much from the outside world in my mom's stomach and i think i getting to master something called mahjong, my mom always play it with her friends, some of them are pregnant too....wondering will it be there day that i play with the other kids in my mom's friends children.

The picture above is me....they took quite a lot of my picture but i'm shy to show my face to everyone....i think they took this picture without my notice...maybe i am sleeping.....haha

I heard i have lots of uncles and aunts around the world....wondering i have the chance to meet them all someday......wondering what i get from them when i born....hehehe (my uncle Fong tought me that.....

Well, can't wait to come out soon

Misunderstood Tofu

Something happened today while i am in the office sitting in front of my pc and playing with my shimlar character. Suddenly a player nick Tofu attract me and i thought it might be someone i knew. So i started this stdupid conversation.


Me : mind i ask where you come from?

Tofu says: erm... why (29 Jun 10:50:20)

Me : well cause your nick made me thought of someone knew

Tofu says: this is my first time using this nick (29 Jun 10:52:17)

Me : oh really? but seems like you been playing this for long....honestly speaking i was wondering whether are you my cousin as he likes to use tofu too....i guess

Tofu says: oh no...not again.... im gonna change my nick soon sighs (29 Jun 10:54:00)

Tofu says: lol u ain't serious right? lol (29 Jun 11:03:32)

Me : so you are not american huh....

Tofu says: asian here ^^ (29 Jun 11:05:52)

Me : oh, i thought you were him just now....

Tofu says: lol... i took this nick from Initial D (29 Jun 11:04:33)

Me : ok, i believe you are not him...

Tofu says: so i get to keep this nick? @@ (29 Jun 11:06:36)

Me : well, i only thought you are my cousin at the first place and didn't say anything about you can't keep the nick....no hard feeling ya...

Tofu says: lol :D if i get to keep it... then i wont have any hard feelings :P (29 Jun 11:07:11)

Me : erm....ok....

Tofu says: ah okay... :P anyway nice talking to ya (29 Jun 11:08:05)

Me : same here too..

End of conversation here....(Tofu was from Initial D??)


P/S : What that tofu said is originaly i copy and paste from the chat....

P/SS : Actually me myself not sure is it all i say to him...:D

Bryan....Good name?

Most of the parents will scractch their head for their new born baby, and same to my sister. She thought of Bryan but yet maybe she thinks it's not good enough so she wants me to think of a name starts with B. I'm not very good in name starts with B especialy for a boy......haha, but i think of few such as Bernard, Bosco, Bernedict, Brandon, Benny.....and even Bexter(alexander+esther) but she still don't like it...so end of the day she said she still prefer Bryan (wasting my time only).

And now, she's start headache for the baby's chinese name, so as a Uncle, i of course will try my best to think a nice name for the baby. The baby will be born soon, i have to think fast.....

A Gift For The Little One

Recently there's something bothering in my mind. Thing was like this, soon my sister's little baby is coming to this world and i was scratching my head what to buy as a gift for my little nephew (doctor said confirm it's a baby boy). Hmm, what do you all think? Any suggestions? Uncle Kai, Kiat, Bean and Aunty Leah, Wei and Min and others uncles and aunties i miss out here.

By the way, the most imporant thing is, hehe, who wanna share for the gift? I can credit it for you all.........haha....with family interest rates....:D

Weather Changed

Gosh, it's sure cold these few days. Yesterday while having a drink with Mel at the Mamak store, the chilling wind that not suppose to be here will going right into my bone. What's gonna be next? Snowing?

NOOBS.........in dota

Noobie is in the game

1. Stereo type of typical uncouth and uncivilized person often shown through improper dresscode during social functions or unmatching haircolor during family dinners.
2. A condescending discriminatory insult.
3. DOTA players with poor ethics and bad manners. And tend to suck as well.





AC: good good. we managed to get into the game
M: hohoho



(The game is full)

Monstakilla: oi, all rdy?

kavmaster: wait host.

Monstakilla: ??????????

kavmaster: wait, i got 3 more friends coming

Monstakilla: fukla, which one?

AC: (wtf??) kick kavmaster. less hassle.

kavmaster: huh don't kick me

kavmaster has left the game.

AC: good kick. 10 9 10 8.5 10

AC: 0.5 for technicality.

(awkward silence)

chilla84 has joined the game.

AC: (To M) they didn't understand...

AC: (To M) dammit another ah beng team..

Pardon the above scenario. I'm just venting my frustration but I think at one point of another we've encountered a team that fits this stereotype. They are semi coherent, uncultured, probably have read only 2 books a year (if flipping through the pages of FHM or COSMO to look for nipple shots is considered 'reading'), taunt you with broken Malayish for the slightest things (like narrowly surviving your Lina combo) and spam the channel with GOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGs. Ah bengs.

Of course one might argue that they are just a bunch of immatured children, which cannot be denied either but this is hard to tell when you are trying to visualize the person behind the persona over Battlenet. Then again, it can be said that ah bengs have just about the same mentality as these immatured children, with more spunk.

The thing is, how do we deal with such people? Especially when they begin to hurl insults at you in the game, or threaten to disconnect. Banlists don't scare these people. They may have the articulacy of a washing machine, but they do know how to create a new account on Bnet after having got banned once before for their meticulous disconnective behaviour.

Today I've come up with a list of way to deal with them, which also comes with a figure that indicates the chance of success as based on my past experiences and random observations.

1. Pro Silence

Pro silence is the term I give to people who tend to be excellent in the game, but never once will they utter a word. You can talk to them for hours telling them the plan, and you'll never know if they actually did hear you, but somehow your plan works out and you find yourself winning the game; communication regardless.

In my experience, pro silence does nothing to deter the stereo typical noobie, as they will continue to barrage you with insults after insults which in itself does not hurt, but this takes their focus off the game and they tend to die easier. The ultimatum is a downward spiral of the game as dying, the noobie finds himself blaming you for the deaths even more and thus tries to throw even more insults at your silent name.

The silence makes them uncomfortable. Chance of success: 0%

2. Retaliate!

Sometimes you've had a bad day, or more like your girlfriend has a bad day, and thus you are affected, and as a result when that noobie pisses you off, you return by lashing out at him in the same common denominator vulgar language that he's so very well versed in.

Like the saying goes, never try to argue with an idiot, he only brings you down to his level and beats you from experience. Chance of success: 0%

3. Be Nice

If the going gets rough, you need sandpaper. Thus when an ah beng decides to make you the sole focus of his uncalled for angst, you should try to resolve it by talking things out with the angry bugger. Every remark is returned with a polite sentence, pretty smilies and all. Give him what he wants, and let him have things his way. Perhaps he'll mellow down.

This method is promising, because after all, everyone knows that ah bengs just want people to understand them, which is to see things their way, which in short means to agree to their every whim. This ultimately fails because Apple's Law dictates that there are always 2 or more noobies in any given public DOTA game.

Chance of success: 1%

4. Play Psychologist

Perhaps we could try to unravel the mind of a noob, and thus be able to understand them which might result in a mutual understanding of their kind with us. However, any attempts to deconstruct the noob psyche is dangerous and risky as in trying to do so, you might be sucked into their ever constant playground of a mind and turn into one of them.

In my experience, it doesn't work trying to counsel or console any noobs either as they barely fail to understand your language if you do not place cuss words in between every 2 words and type sentences longer than half of their screen. Besides that, their minds automatically filter out words with 6 characters or more. We know that much at least, and it wasn't easy getting that information.

Hence, don't ever try to understand a noob. Chance of success: 0%

5. Quit the game

Can't take the mental abuse? Don't like the way your bengnemies are treating you? Can't stand that ah beng with the BKB-ed Naix who keeps destroying Moonwells in your base and then laughing about it as if it were something new? Well, there's always the easy way out. For no stress and effort at all, just press the magic Alt-F4.

But that would make you a leaver. Chance of success: -

6. Discuss it on DOTA Malaysia!

Apparently I've run out of ideas, but I'm sure someone who reads this site has better experience at this sort of thing. I mean, forget the noob part. It's a sour stereo type for such players, but what else do you call these people who lack ethics and in the game.

The DOTA community is growing by day, and it's without a doubt that the bad eggs are just about there in any game for that matter but it's high time we taught these people some manners!

The question is, how?

Gentlecars, start your engines.....

Damn, how could it start raining before i finish my work. Now i have to stay over without doing anything but keep on clicking my fifaworldcup player online. I almost felt asleep during working so i speed up to faster finish it, who knows still can't make it before the rain.

Maybe cause of the movie yesterday made me tired, haha. Hhmm, it's been 2 months none stop watching movie week by week. Looks like i didn't miss any movie that i wanna watch so far, though some of the movies are out of my espectation.

Yesterday went to watch Pixar new animation CARS with my budd. Since he being good and nice when he was sick last week by taking his medicine on time, so i decide to treat him dinner plus the movie as reward...hehe

So how's the CARS? I don't really know, cause there's a lot of mini engine starting to run around in the cinema, wait, i thought i'm in day care center or something. Well, at least i think the short animation at the begining before the show starts do attract. Gonna add into my mobile collection once the DVD is out for sale.

So how's the CARS really, well i can say it has quite good story line, but so far for me, i think it can't compare to Over The Hedge, a animation showed before CARS, which is not a production of Pixar, i gonna get the DVD too...woohoo....

Oh gosh, i am tired....ignore me if you think it's weird.....zzzzz

Life was like this part II

I can't believe this is happened to me. I'm going to carzy busy week, maybe will be month soon. Imagine a team with 5 person and i am might need to do the rest of 3 people including mine job.

This is what i do at the moment, do report for some company for their exposure rate on newspaper, magazine, and maybe television. My group of people are doing for the chinese newspaper and magazines cause the rest of the collegues can't read mandarin. So this is what happened before this, everyone in the group has the equal of big report from daily newspaper, and some sub report from magazine and newspaper from east coast of Malaysia. Before this was a peaceful, free and not so much work situation even though some team member came different time. Yeah, this was a job with all the freedom you want, as long as you finish the job you were asked to do. Plus, nobody will interrupt what you do neither you can do the same, unless there's some rushing situation.

Unfortunately, one of the member seems like unhappy with his job and been absent since the begining of the month, so at the moment the rest of us will share his job. I remembered that the other two of members, which are couples, already planned to go for vacation soon, now only left me, and another guy who come not as much as me, gonna share their jobs.

I'm already start to become a bit crazy already by sharing part of the extra job, but sometimes i do it all, i wondering do i have to camp in the office for some time to finish all the jobs that need to be finish?

But things are always two side, bad and good. By having this much of jobs in hand, which automaticly increase my monthly income by complete all those main and sub reports. But hope by that time i still manage to have the chance to enjoy the harvest.

Life was like this....

Gosh, take some time to come back to this ruins, a place that i almost forgotten. Untill 1 day, when one of my cousin sent me the other cousin's blog, which created by the cousin who sent it to me.....oh whatever, the things is, it reminds me that i had this blog and to connect to others (this what i plan to do when i create this blog) again, i decided to back to here.

Takes a long time to back here as there's a lot of WEB (password and username retrieve) and mess (memory things) to do. Which the spirit that will never give up, i'm finally back here.....and i realise it's been almost a year i left here....i guess the motivation before this was not enough and maybe my post was not attractive and interesting enough.........lolzzz

so friends and especially cousins, i have already left a seeds which is from my blog for you....hehe...hope you will find here and drop a word here....guess there's a lot to do after this, gonna regroup my memory and post something that left behind for long time before after this....:D Well, at least will have a post once a week.....

Ever been this situation?

My friend told me his embarrassing experience last night while we drinking in Mamak restaurant. This was happen when he was in the public toilet in some pubs, after got drunk and stomachach came to him. So he just walk to the toilet, walking unstable into the toilet, barely sitting down and heard a voice from the other side

"Hi, how are you?"

Jeremy said he's not the type to start a conversation in the men's restroom but he don't know what go into him, and he answered, somewhat embarrassed, "Nothing much but doing just fine!"

And then the guy at the other side asks, "So what are you up to?"

Jeremy was kinda stun and thinking what kind of question is that? At that point, he's thinking that is too bizarre so he says, "Erm, I'm like you, just traveling!"

Till this level, Jeremy said all he thinking of is to leave this place as soon as he can. But then he heard another question, "Can i come over?"

Jeremy was pissed that time for the weird question but he figured he could just be polite and end the conversation so he told him, "Nope, I'm a little busy right now!!!!"

Then he said he heard the guy say nervously.......

"Hey listen, i think i'll have to call you back. Some moroon who probably got drunk and in the other side next to me keeps answering all my questions!!"

Jeremy, Jeremy....luckly ppl asume that you are drunk, not nuts.......

Bored

My friends encouraged me to start this blog to share my bored life with the world. Now what i do everyday is almost repeating the same step except eat, sleep, shit. Playing online battle net is one of the things that will do everyday to pass my time in that shop. Anyone who sitting in the shop will heard someone scream "Fucking Cocksucker Won't FUCKING DIE!!" or "Fuck Shit I Almost Kill Him!!" in front of the monitor screen at very late hours, which i'm waiting to close the shop yet i'm still one of the noob there.

By the way, today no one here for game. But posting a blog in the middle of the night, 2.43 p.m? I must be kidding to myself. That's the main reasons why i decided to have this blog, bored. I want to write down the boredness of everyday and I want one day when i leave this boring life, and look back these blog, I can laugh out loud. So the best part was, what if everyday writting the same thing.

But, who cares, that's tomorrow business already.

By the way, for the friends who care bout me, i meant 'REALLY' care bout me, please write something here so i can re-comment ah.....gum xia......:D